my heart try to ignore their discussion

I wish that all doctors had this level of insight because I hate reading about RA patients being dismissed because their symptoms are only “in their head.”

this is what this article impact of RA Mental functioning said, 
and I said was 

I hate doctor ignore my pain when I need to hold the pain every morning sometime full day.

of coz, they know much better,
but the one that feels the pain was me.

and 

how they treat me during appointments like I'm just pretend to sick,

the blood test results already there,

I heard they said something about SLE,

My ear listen carefully

my heart try to ignore their discussion,

I hope my pain was not that SLE,

I'm really hope... 

they need to do the blood test again for another two-month upcoming appointment.

again,

im need to waiting...